Cannot seem to control it tonight.
I tried.
I thought about STOPPING >>>>>> but I just couldnt.
When I saw blood I tried to back out of it and try to get some sense. I journaled.
I am wired because my mind is playing tricks on me.
It is 3am.
I hurt.
I cannot take the flashbacks.
And, I cannot keep cutting....or it is going to be really bad for me.