i can't qualify you, only you can do that. but the concern you have may indicate a dependence on alcohol or alcoholism. many of us have been there. here's some helpful tips. you may be able to identify with them. also attending AA may be helpful even if you just listen to perhaps find some answers.
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What is Alcohol Dependence?
Alcohol dependence is a chronic disease that is often progressive and fatal. Although alcoholism tends to run in families, it is influenced by both genetic and environmental factors. An individual who is dependent upon alcohol typically uses it to avoid personal and social factors in his or her life. The four symptoms of alcohol dependence include: - craving for alcohol
- inability to reduce or stop alcohol consumption
- experience withdrawal symptoms when stopping alcohol consumption
- increased tolerance of alcohol (takes more to get the same effect)
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http://www.healthauthority.com/AlcoholDependence.htm
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Alcohol Dependence There is a persistent desire or unsuccessful efforts to cut down or control use of alcohol or the substance
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http://psychcentral.com/disorders/sx16.htm
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By Mayo Clinic staff
Alcoholism symptoms include: - Being unable to limit the amount of alcohol you drink
- Feeling a strong need or compulsion to drink
- Developing tolerance to alcohol so that you need an increasing amounts to feel its effects
- Having legal problems or problems with relationships, employment or finances due to drinking
- Drinking alone or in secret
- Experiencing physical withdrawal symptoms — such as nausea, sweating and shaking — when you don't drink
- Not remembering conversations or commitments, sometimes referred to as "blacking out"
- Making a ritual of having drinks at certain times and becoming annoyed when this ritual is disturbed or questioned
- Losing interest in activities and hobbies that used to bring you pleasure
- Irritability when your usual drinking time nears, especially if alcohol isn't available
- Keeping alcohol in unlikely places at home, at work or in your car
- Gulping drinks, ordering doubles, becoming intoxicated intentionally to feel good or drinking to feel "normal"
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http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/alc...CTION=symptoms
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