I am able to draw nice pictures and have them featured in galleries. I am a wildlife starving artist. Just right now I have trouble drawing because of concentration. it is the depression acting up for me. Please don't kill yourself. I always look forward to you being here and your posts. Right now my drawings don't look as professional because I am having problems right now as a struggling starving artist. I look forward to world peace. I am just stressed right now. My mom is sick like always. Real to the extreme. I am like you, I post in the schizophrenia forum because I am told I have it even though I believe my so-called "delusions."