You can't protect the people around you by hurting yourself...that's unrealistic. Making it to a month is amazing progress even if you're not really trying to make it far w/o cutting. You may not want to stop altogether, but something has kept you from SI & I think it's worth giving yourself credit for. Remember it's your choice & whatever decision you make is ok. The road to recovery can be scary & I understand if you're not ready to pursue it. Once again I congratulate you & hope you continue to go w/o it. Making it to a month shows you that a life w/o SI is possible. Take care 8)