Dear T,
I do not want to hate myself. Sometimes I can almost understand why other people don't hate me. I'm kind, I do a lot of things for others, and I have a pretty keen sense of humour. Problem is, I also know all the things that other people don't, so I know why I deserve to be despised. But I still don't want to despise myself.
I think that I thought this was something I'd get help with, when I entered therapy. Silly and naïve of me, I know that now. I don't want you to say you like me, to be clear - that would be very weird. But I'd like to see that I can be likable.
I'd also like to feel some kind of hope that I can get better.