Yes, I do feel ashamed whenever I'm angry and say the wrong things. It's like a vicious cycle. Anger-Crying-Depression-Shame-Anxious- and it goes around and around. And my therapist knew I was cutting myself. I told her. But I made her promise not to tell my parents because...my parents aren't acceptable of it. They're too religious and they think whoever cuts themselves is crazy and should be locked up in a mental ward. And whenever I tell them how I'm feeling, they say that "I need Jesus in my heart" and that I need to pray and it's my lack of devotion to religion that's making me feel "empty" and "depressed." I don't really trust them...and it's just getting worse.
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