Not sure if ive fully understood where you're coming from but my experiences at the moment are similarly frustrating. Ive got chest problems which i can't get my doctor to care enough about to diagnose so as a means of coping with this pain i SI...i don't know if its to help me focus my mind on pain thats coming from elsewhere or if it just helps me relieve some of the anger im harboring towards my doctor. All i know is that being in so much physical pain does nothing for my already poor mental health and when i recently told my doctor this he again remained unmoved *sigh* i hope you get the answers you're looking for...