((((gnomy476)))),

Yes, I can see you ARE struggling and YOU DO NEED HELP WITH THIS. Your parents responding with this "get the faith" will fix you is GARBAGE. And to be honest, often people who practice faith that way ARE FILLING BIG HOLES IN THEMSELVES THAT THEY CANT FIX. To me, what your parents are saying is "I don't know how to fix you or myself so lets just pray". And it is obvious that your parents don't nurture you either and that is what you really need, probably have for a very long time. And my bet is that is where all this anger comes from. And by the way, please don't harm your pets because they are only innocent and certainly do not deserve that.

You definitely need someone who can help you with this and even mentor you as well.
I don't know why you wont go talk to your school councelor because they are trained to help students like you to get the help and therapy they need. You are not the only student that experiences this you know. And that is exactly why these councelors have that job. And if you do go to see your councelor, that councelor can help you make your parents understand that "just praying" is not going to fix your problems.

You are not going crazy, but you are stressed about this and that is feeding into being depressed. You need to see a therapist that can help you learn where this is coming from and my guess, lack of proper nurturing.

You have to speak up for yourself and if your parents not listening, FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL.

(((((Gentle warm hugs)))
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