....hmmm, I don't really know?

a huge part of me...a very twisted and determined part of me knows that if I could get away with it, I would be drinking all day everyday and that would be it! drink and eventually die and over and out....like many people have throughout history.

but...there is another part of me that does not agree with that big part of me!
It's not a bigger part of me....it's actually a very tiny part of me....but it's got alot more power and influence.

it just tells me I have to stay sober.

if thats the higher power....then so be it