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Old Apr 11, 2012, 07:37 PM
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Originally Posted by BipolaRNurse View Post
So sorry to hear about your ex-hubby and little guy's Dad. I've known a couple like you who were much better friends than married people, and it was hell when one of them passed on.

Mixed episodes.......how do I hate thee? Let me count the ways---for one thing, my depressive episodes have always been clearly that, and this time I couldn't tell if I was depressed or what. There was this disconnect between my agitation and my actual amount of physical activity---I was like an engine revved up to 7000 rpm while sitting on blocks in the driveway. I was irritable, explosive, hostile, paranoid, anxious.......I couldn't concentrate, couldn't stay on task, couldn't remember stuff, couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, and couldn't have cared less.

I had no insight whatsoever into what was going on, and when I asked my primary doctor for a different antidepressant he said No and referred me to a psychiatrist. To say I was pissed is an understatement; I wasn't crazy, I'd just had really bad mood swings most of my life. But I went, and it took all of 90 minutes to get a diagnosis of BP NOS (he's still figuring out whether it's cyclothymia or bipolar II). Luckily, I haven't developed a rash from the Lamictal, and the relief it's provided is simply amazing......I almost feel normal again (whatever THAT is, lol).

Of course, I'm fearful of going through another episode like that. I wonder how long the remission will be, and what happens if the meds stop working. But I guess I shouldn't worry about it, no one can know when or if it'll happen again, and I want to enjoy the good days while they're here.



Hi there! Yea I know what you mean about enjoying the good days...sometimes they seem so few and far between....I always wonder what it would feel like to feel, well, that word they call "normal"....Im glad that your Lamictal gives you that relief, and from what I hear, if you titrate up slow enough, hopefully you can avoid the rash....guess I just got lucky lol.....I dont go back to my PDoc for another month, and Im just so frustrated...Im doing so so, but before I got this wonderful disorder, I was never so so....I was bubbly and fun and full of life....that is what I am hoping to get back....I dont want to just settle, and like I said before, something just isnt right....and I noticed something else too....besides being freakishly tired....did I mention freakishly tired lol.....I crave sugar like its going out of style.....I think about it, I dream about it, I want to eat it for all 3 meals a day.....not normal lol.....but which med is the culprit? Or is it something else? Heck, who knows.....ok once again, rattling on about my problems.....
So what type of nurse are you? Ya, I'm a nosy one lol...its always nice to know something about the person you are talking to. Do you have children, pets, etc??? I hope things are good for you today and that you are feeling well! Thanks for writing back!
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