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Originally Posted by xraydiva09
Hi there! Yea I know what you mean about enjoying the good days...sometimes they seem so few and far between....I always wonder what it would feel like to feel, well, that word they call "normal"....Im glad that your Lamictal gives you that relief, and from what I hear, if you titrate up slow enough, hopefully you can avoid the rash....guess I just got lucky lol..... I dont go back to my PDoc for another month, and Im just so frustrated...Im doing so so, but before I got this wonderful disorder, I was never so so....I was bubbly and fun and full of life....that is what I am hoping to get back....I dont want to just settle, and like I said before, something just isnt right....and I noticed something else too....besides being freakishly tired....did I mention freakishly tired lol.....I crave sugar like its going out of style.....I think about it, I dream about it, I want to eat it for all 3 meals a day.....not normal lol.....but which med is the culprit? Or is it something else? Heck, who knows.....ok once again, rattling on about my problems.....
So what type of nurse are you? Ya, I'm a nosy one lol...its always nice to know something about the person you are talking to. Do you have children, pets, etc??? I hope things are good for you today and that you are feeling well! Thanks for writing back!  |
if you need to see your doc sooner than that, just call and let him/her know what you're feeling & see if you can be worked into the schedule... the worst they can say is "hell, no".. which might be a good indicator to put out feelers for a more flexible doc...
like you, my "normal" self is pretty upbeat, bubbly & outgoing.. smiley and generous of heart... and having lived with this mess in my head for over 16 years... good, bad, and all the ugly... i can testify that you can get that back.. you might not get it 100% of the time, but with the right cocktail in the right dosages, you can get back to being YOU most of the time...
my advice: whenever you feel something just isn't right... tell your doctor... in many ways you have to be your own mental health advocate... you gotta be willing to fight for yourself..
and i can relate to the freakishly tired... my doc finally pointed out to me the right word was "sedated"... which is really much more accurate... a ridiculous heaviness to my muscles.. no amount of coffee can keep me up, need to prop my eyelids open with toothpicks & sugar cubes kind of tired... my culprit was too high a dose of geodon (i used it problem free for years, then suddenly it started causing daytime sedation... now i take a much smaller dose)...
and the craving sugar... yeah, i get that... though mine was carbs.. all kinds of carbs.. for six months straight & i never got full.. my culprit: abilify... soon as i came off it & it got out of my system, my apetite went back to "normal" ... now if i can just lose the 60 lbs i gained whlie i was on it...
if you had told me drugs could make you eat different/more, etc before that experience, i would have had a hard time believing... but now i KNOW better...
*hugs*
oh yeah, welcome back to pc