we all just do therapy in our own repetition compulsion way. last night they showed the twilight zone episode where the earth fell out of its orbit and is falling into the sun and it keeps getting hotter and hotter. then all of a sudden the main character wakes up and it turns out the opposite is true, the earth is going away from the sun and it's really getting colder. granite, everything you do you think makes things worse, because with your the mother, they did, like getting closer to the sun. with me, if I don't watch out, I keep getting farther and farther away from T, cos that's how it was with my the mother. both our T's are just trying to get us into a more normal orbit, good luck to them.