Can't remember if my most recent "official" diagnosis was bipolar I or II. Doesn't really matter to me. I'm usually depressed. Just came off a major 3-4 month manic episode with a huge crash at the end back into depression. I'm currently way at the low end of depressed, leaning heavily toward self injury and suicide. Throw in the rest of my "multiple diagnosis" crap and all that matters is I'm a mess and I have to figure out a way to live with it somehow.