I got tested for ADD 3 years ago and the psychologist said I had it. After that I never went back to see him. 4 months ago I started dating a girl and I knew that I had to face my mental problems or end up in another dead end relationship (this one is one the rocks only making matters worse). I went and saw a therapist for @ a month and didnt like her, stopped going for a while and started again about 6 weeks ago and I really like her. The center has therapists and psychiatrists on site which is good. I initially saw the psychiatrist and he put me on Straterra. Didnt do anything except erase my sex drive. Went to concerta and that made me more anxious. After a few sessions with the therapist she did not think it was ADD at all, or if so very minor. She said that it sounded like Schizoid personality disorder, depression, OCD and a little ADD. When she told me what Schizoid was it really opened my eyes...

1 neither desires nor enjoys close relationships, including being part of a family
2 almost always chooses solitary activities
3 has little, if any, interest in having sexual experiences with another person
4 takes pleasure in few, if any, activities
5 lacks close friends or confidants other than first-degree relatives
6 appears indifferent to the praise or criticism of others
7 shows emotional coldness, detachment, or flattened affectivity

This describes me to a "T". No wonder I never have any long term relationships. So I think the strategy is to attack the depression with Welbutrin, the anxiety with Ativan and the Schizoid with therapy. Its been a week, so far so good. I just think it might be too little to late for the relationship. I really dont want to lose her. The depression is real bad right now. My Schizoid tendencies are pushing me away from my girl, and then she withdrawls from me and then I get depressed even more and turn to her and she withdrawls. I know she really loves me, but I dont know if she can deal with my problems. Its really sad because I love her deeply and want it to work. Time will tell!! Thanks for listening. By the way what is a pdoc? psychiatrist?

Mike