My T said to be gentle with myself over this new knowledge, but I'm not actually in any real danger.
My denial is still in pretty good shape, protecting me from unwanted guilt.

We are talking about consequences that I did not intend and could not have foreseen.

Also, T admitted that if the Horrible Event had not occurred, people wouldn't have left the group and it could have kept going.
The Horrible Event was not my doing, nor was it my job to stop it.

I won the 2009 Pontius Pilate Award for Manual Hygiene.