Hello my name is robert, i have come here seeking help, much much needed help. i have been having some real issues here lately and seem to have been losing touch with myself.i slowly seem to drift away from reality and myself and find my self a mind in an empty place. I can not get a grip on anything. i have had a very emotionally difficult life, one with many pains in it. some almost unbearable but some how i still have the will to go on and fight, but thats as far as it goes for some reason. i cant get myself to do anything past stay alive. I have an amazing oppurtunity right now and i just keep screwing up, ive been lazy and emotionless, ive lost any will to get up and do ANYTHING, i sleep dead through my alarms in the morning getting work late very often, im making all the wrong choices, even though in my head the whole time im telling myself i need to change and be this man my boss wants me to be, but for some reason i cant, i have been trying so hard but i just wont do anything. i want to, i want to change and do everything im supposed to, but i cant i dnt know why. i just cant do anything i tell myself i need to do, even though i know if i dnt ill be homeless again, and broke and back flaty on my face. shouldnt knowing that be anough to be able to do it. what is wrong with me, why am i making myself suffer and how come i cant stop! i really need to get my life right or im going to end up nothing, and i am so much better than that