Do any of you have any advice or thoughts you can share?

At the end of last year things had been going pretty well with my T. Around the beginning of this year, however, I started feeling all sorts of distant from her. It was sort of like a rupture, only there wasn't any real "fight" or anything I could think of that was the obvious cause.

Just this past week I realized where much of the difficulty came from, though. I think I misinterpreted something she said, and I felt like she was asking me not to share certain thoughts I was having. I felt rejected and started pulling back, I think.

We talked about it this week, and it feels like it's mostly cleared up. The problem, now, is that I feel like I really need/miss her. (The point, I think, is that I suddenly feel like I don't have to distance myself anymore, and now I really just want to feel better, which means feeling close.) But the opposite is also true. Feeling like I want to give in and let myself feel close to her--even like I want to text her to say that I feel sad and like I miss her--feels dangerous and has me terrified. So on top of feeling so painfully that I miss her and want to be connected, I also feel like I need to work to really, really push her away, mostly so I can stop the pain of missing her, but also because I feel like it makes me a horribly needy jerk.

Does anything similar ever happen to any of you? If so, how do you handle it?

Thanks for any thoughts you can share.