I'm being pulled apart. There's too much energy in me and I don't know how to release it. I've been doing well this past week. Upped the meds and they finally started working but now I spent twenty minutes in the bathroom rocking myself back and forth very dangerously and I feel the need to hurt myself very bad. I need to do something. I don't know what. I can't stay with one thing. I don't know what to do.