Yes, I can relate.. I have seen T twice this week b/c my session on Monday brought up a whole lot of emotions and I was having a hard time dealing with it all. So, I saw T yesterday as well and the last thing I said to him was at this point I was either going to withdraw or keep calling (meaning scheduling appointments, and call him between appointments, etc).. I am in the same boat as you.. I don't want to need help, I want to do it on my own. I hate the feeling of being too needy. My T just said, that everybody needs help, and they are foolish to think that they can do life on their own. He told me not to feel bad about needing an extra session, or calling in between sessions b/c that is what he is there for and what I pay him for.

I have no advice since I am right where you are.. I just have keep fighting the urge to run and let my guard down a little bit, and keep calling T when I need him. There is nothing wrong with needing the assistance of other people, whether it be a T, a spouse, or a doctor.