I have posted here before but not in awhile.

I was supposed to see my therapist today and arrived early. While waiting for her I saw her go with some man I think on a lunch date. For some reason this really bothered me. I don't think it was jealousy though. I just felt upset.

A little information. My therapist is single like me, a few years younger. I haven't really dated much. She knows I have problems in that area due to CSA. She is always telling me it is okay to be single and stuff like that.

I kind of feel now that she is not the person I thought she was. It was just an illusion. She really doesn't relate to me at all and is just pacifying me by saying what i want to hear.

Hopefully you guys can help me understand this.

TY