Slowcat, i see that you get a lot of nicknames here... this is long so skip it if you want... just another pov

to me it is not really a connection so much as a collaboration. some one on my side and who has the "know how" and can teach me the skills to work out problems i have. he can let me know if i am on the right track and it is nice to have someone who doesn't talk about themselves and makes it all about you. he does share and it does make it more easy for me to share.
last time i needed a light session and he was able to do that for me.
he deals/accepts my moods, depression, sui id. etc, and then the trade off is he gets paid

i don't love him and really don't want him to love me. i am not a part of his life and i really don't want to be, and i am glad he is not in mine. i really appreciate the idea of boundaries in therapy.

i did think he hated me for a long time and i am slowly starting to believe he doesn't. that was a tough time

he doesn't do emails or texts however you can always call, and always get to talk to a person... just his policy

sorry so long hope this lets you see another side...