The last couple of days have been more positive than usual. I was feeling good like i was starting to escape the soul crushing feelings.

I have just discovered that my boyfriend has been using sites to have sex with other women. Im so angry and hurt. But the worst part is that I blame myself for it. Why would he want to be with me? Im a miserable piece of crap. I dont want to have sex because I hate the way I look. If I cant look at me in the mirror, why would anyone else.

I hate myself so much right now. I dont know what to do anymore