I'm so sorry sweetheart. I have lost a lot of people too, to death and to them just not wanting to be around me anymore. If it helps you feel any better at all, I wanna be around you. I wanna listen to you and help as much as I can. You're a great girl, and you don't need to hate yourself because of someone else.
I'm sorry about the mice problem. Please, hit me up if you want to talk. I'm offer b/c I care. Take care of yourself. You are precious. Please remember that.
Peace.