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Originally Posted by landskaperdan
I'm 33. over 20 of those years I have lied to myself, rationalized, and just survived. basically ran like hell from all of this. It's the last couple months I have had to be honest. I really don't know exactly how I feel and when I feel it. Anyone else have this problem?
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Oh yeah.
Drives me bat-sh** crazy because I want everything to be neat and clean---I need it to be tangible and explainable, and that sense of not knowing WHAT the
frijoles I'm feeling is neither.
I also loathe that want-to-crawl-out-of-my-skin sensation. Never knew what that was until my first mixed episode, and when it happened I could hardly stand myself---I didn't want to be in my own body. Gaaaahhhhh!
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