((((WTH)))) Do you realize that all of those "DXs" can be attributed to the one of PTSD? It's the nature of the beast! Maybe that will help you feel a little better...that it isn't you, it's the PTSD that makes you feel this way?

Can't heal from PTSD on your own, no cure for it, need to have plenty of expert support to retrain the brain in proper responses. It is so tough! ((hugs))