In my opinion, this the shame, the needing, the sadness and the anger is what needs addressing, of course, not the email.

Of these emotions, which is getting the most "air time" so to speak. If it's the shame, wow, I wish I could reach in and pull that out of your head.

I can assure you that it doesn't belong to you, you don't deserve to feel that way, and you didn't ask for it. It was put upon you.

There is absolutely, positively nothing that you did that will separate you from that connection that you seek and are entitled to.

I don't think email is the best way to forge that connection, it will have to come from within and reside in you.

It's there. It's always been there, that worthiness for connection. Someone, or something just tried to take it from you.

Just my two cents here.