He says that he is going to get help. He got online yesterday and researched domestic violence and brought up on his own how he abuses sex for power and said it was wrong when he made me have sex when I didn't want to. He then got very quiet and sad and 'how did I get like this?? how did I become this person?' and I felt bad for him. Time will tell if he will change or if this is just a ploy to keep me holding on. He apologized for everything except hitting me. He said he is not physically abusive because I was a disgusting pill popper when he hit me and I had it coming. I have 73 days sober today, FYI.