gosh, i just feel so over-whelmed and useless, i feel like i'm slipping and i dunno know to stop it, i don't wanna slip but i'm afraid i might not be able to help it,i'm starting to think like this is my destiny i'll hafta struggle for the rest of my life and i dunno if i'll make it, i dunno if i can ever get over the past...i feel so stupid, far out, i definitely am slipping aren't i?