I know that this is a topic I have seen a lot around this board. Alot of us (at least from what I observe) don't want to rely on our Ts or other support person so much. T keeps on reminding me that really to do "it" on our own isn's smart.. We need each other. That he specifically is there to be my support person. Reminds me over and over again to call when I need, to make as many appointments as I need, that is okay if I have to come in more than once a week. It still just feels so weird.

I am having another rough day.. after going through my plans for anxiety, such as meds, excersize, relaxation cd, in generally doing things to distract myself I find myself anxious and on the verge of tears. I know T would say to call him, even if it is only for him to help ground me. But, I just can't get the past the fact that I have seen him twice this week, and talked to him on the phone once. I don't want to have to talk to him again. I am afraid more reliance on him is just going to perpetuate a cycle of relying too much on him, and that can't be healthy. I am so torn in this situation. I am sure somebody has to identify with this issue right?