Yes, I definitely identify. Theory has it that giving in to the need lessens it, though I don't know that that's really proved true for me. At the same time, I haven't truly given in to it either.

I think it's good to have multiple sources of support and to use all of them as needed. If your T is reassuring you that it's okay to contact him, then I think it's okay. I don't think he'd offer something he truly didn't want to give.

I know it's hard.