Ackman, some things you said struck me in a good way. I checked out your deviant art page, and while I don't particularly like your artwork, it doesn't mean it's not good. Kind of like how I hate the Garfield cartoons but others love them. Someone is likely to appreciate your drawing style, but they just haven't found your art yet.

The thing you mentioned about maybe being a better cartographer gave me an idea that maye you can run with. You also said that people say this country you believe in doesn't exist. It sounds to me like you have a rich universe (no matter if it's real or not) you could share with others. Maybe combine your writing with your cartography and illustrate this world you see to share with others. Anyway, it was just an idea I had for your creativity.

people can often be cruel in their criticisms, especially of art. I know it's hard to do, especially when it seems everyone's working against you, but you should try shoving those nasty comments about your talents aside. People can be especially cruel over the Internet since there is a certain level of anonymity. They can spew vitriol without ever fearing any kind of backlash. So all those harsh words should be taken with a grain of salt. Someone will eventually appreciate your talents. You just should try some patience, and someone will come along eventually.