I agreed to take the lithium again because i'm not in school right now so I thought the mind fuzziness wouldn't be much of a problem. The lithium made me feel worse, since I stop taking it my aggressiveness is gone. I'm able to think and process better, I just feel better all around. I *think* the lithium, (or the thought of me taking it) did push the panic/anxiety attacks. It could be my imagination, but now I associate the Lithium to panic attacks so it's a no go now
As far as the anxiety/panic attacks go, I've had them for about 10 years now. I have no idea what the trigger is....I actually got a call from my family doctor today and they said they did my referral and the psychologist I chose is calling me Monday to make an appointment Finally
I feel sorry for her cause i'm a mess and for her to figure out what is wrong with me and what my triggers are will be a miracle!
My childhood was..... to say the least, horrible. My mother was a drug addict. I lived with a couple different aunts, grandparents and my Father for awhile. I sat in the back seat of my mother's car while she screamed about not being able to find her next (whatever drug she needed). I was taken advantage of a few times when I was 9, I never got on the school bus without a red mark across my face from my mother hitting me, and I was picked on at school for being different...I saw my mother being beat....My Father died at the age of 42 from a heart attack, six months before he died we had an argument and we never talked since. I never told him he was going to be a grandpa before he died. Unfortunately, the list goes on
So..... anything could be a trigger, I'm surprised I haven't had a mental meltdown yet to be honest. I told you guys this so maybe you could better understand, or maybe I just needed to get some of it out....I don't know... Thanks for listening and for the reply's, it's helps and it makes me fell better