I don't know much about PTSD.... I did have a horrible childhood. My mother was a drug addict, so I was around a lot of stupid stuff. I remember sitting in the back seat of her car while she was screaming. Her car overheated and she couldn't find what she was looking for (drugs). And I remember her yelling at my grandmother cause she wouldn't give her money, my grandmother offered to buy her food but refused loaning money. I saw my mother beat, she also had me live with a couple different aunts... so I felt kind of jealous of their family.... I always felt left out and uncomfortable. I was taken advantage of a couple different times between the age of 9-10. I told my mother and she didn't believe me. I never got on the school bus without a slap mark across my face and me crying, I was 13-16 at that time. I was ALWAYS made fun of and picked on at school for being different, a loner, always sad, no friends, and then of course being mean. And, my Father died at the age of 42 (sudden heart attack). Six months before he died we got into an argument, so I never got to tell him I was pregnant and he was going to be a grandpa....
Maybe all that is the cause? There is a lot more but I don't want to bore anyone I did however get a call today from my family doctor, they said a psychologist is calling Monday to set up an appointment....So hopefully I can figure out what is going on The nightmares are just one problem of several.
Thanks for the reply's and thanks for listening It means a lot