and poof I'm back posting here.

Its less than a week after moving to my parents house. I KNOW I'm letting the location and the change get me down.

I can only handle about 3 hours of job search a day, and I am proud that I can do that. Today "job search" only meant looking up programs at local colleges, how much they cost, and what requirements the degree programs had. It hurts to realize how my BM really was so specific it didn't include math, which makes it really hard to transfer to another field, it's hard to realize I cant' get a job in my fiel with my bachelors, and it's hard to look for jobs making 8/hour and just HOPING I can find one? and having to live so many hours away from my boyfriend that I will only be able to visit 1x a month, $ and time permitting.




I can't stop the bad talk without just watching TV, playing games, or whatever. I don't have many friends in the area so its hard for me to reach out that way either. My therapist is hours away too.

USELESS, Stupid, old... lazy... negative adjectives spinning in my head. I hate taking the energy to combat them, hate having to deal with it. I know how. I'll be fine and if it gets worse, back to therapy and more extensive battling, but still