I started going downhill a couple of months ago. It first started with a lot of anxiety and paranoia. I couldn't figure out why it was returning or what it meant. Now, I think I know. It started the month before the 6th anniversary of when my ex boyfriend abused me.

I'm really scared right now that other things will start coming back, too. The thing that scares me the most is the possibility of the DID coming back. I was quite a mess before, but had overcome it. I don't know how, either. It started right after he abused me, got worse with my girlfriend and when I got away from her it stopped. I had to be put in a halfway house.

Well, here I am again. The symptoms are starting up again. I'm developing agoraphobia (most likely since I fit the DSM description of it) and I'm just so afraid of the DID resurfacing again.

Why is this happening again? What have I done to deserve this???