(((hugs))) feeling overwhelmed is one thing, useless is another. Feeling stupid in one thing, far out is another. Overwhelmed and far out are sensations that happen. Useless and stupid are words you are using that don't fit in here.. or anywhere, imo!

I'm sorry you feel you are slipping down deeper. Try and be "ok" with it, as it seems, to me, for me at times, that depression is like quicksand, the more you struggle against it, the more it grips you.

Try and distract yourself. It's ok to do that, it isn't denying your not well, it's giving your brain a break so it can better tackle the depression,imo.

Try not to think of "the rest of your life" but take today, tonight...get through tonight, you can do that, yes? Me too. TC! (((more hugs)))