What a good thing you've realized! Don't think about the 5 weeks, but each day... get through "today." Or when times get tougher, think about just this hour. Each hour or day.... it's often discouraging to have to view the entire path we have to (or want to) follow. This is true for nearly everyone!

I'm sorry you need this way to cope with what is going on in your life. I hope you will be able to soon realize that you really do deserve to treat yourself better. I think it's wonderful you've continued to try, and are doing such a good job!!