I was on Celexa for awhile. It made me so apathetic. I couldn't be anxious about anything! My personality was gone. It was like the lights were on but, no one was home. I couldn't even think. I remember complaining that I had no thoughts and I didn't. My brain was liken to a refrigerator buzzing. My perceptions were a flat hum. I'd just sit there, blank faced and I had nothing to say! Weirdest experience of my life and that includes being so crazy I'd talk to various objects thinking there were wizards inside 'em hahah, that kind of crazy with racing thoughts and thinking weird things, seeing stuff, loud thoughts etc I'm comfy in but, being empty inside? Dull? Thoughtless? Hate it.

During psych evaluations they'll always ask, do you feel empty? During the rule out borderline personality phase. I couldn't understand what they meant until that point. It is so freakin' weird! I'm usually all full of myself and I like me, except when depressed, all full of myself and I don't like me but, there was no me! Where did I go!

That was a Celexa Lamictal mix and the last SSRI I will ever try. I bet it would do wonders for anxiety disorders.

Next to mania, Ativan is the best unnatural feeling in the world. Love the stuff, probably why I'm not prescribed it very often haha!