I am really scared that after the last time I cut (um, NOT the last time I SIed ) I did some real damage, and I don't know who to see. Every time I have had to talk about anything to do with it, I get haunting flashbacks of the most gruesome part- the only part of it I remember doing probably thanks to these flashbacks. It was about 4 weeks ago, but is still getting dressed every other day due to infection, and as it is on my upper leg I have been unable to go to the gym or do much walking. I decided everything felt fine today so I took the dog for a walk- our usual route (that is about 5km). 1/2 way round the whole of my upper thigh got really sore, and the muscle or something didn't feel 'right'. I am just really scared that I really have gone 'too far' this time and done some major damage to a muscle, tendon or ligament as the cut was so deep. But who should I see? I am scared to talk about it with anyone coz of the flashbacks- I can't cope with them when I am thinking about my leg let alone when I have to talk to someone about it... HELP!!!