I've been doing ok with anorexia, and was maintaining a healthyish weight. But then the more I started eating the more I started loosing. This week I have had a really bad flu, I couldn't eat anything barely at all. Now I am feeling a bit better except for I still cannot eat. My weight right now is at a point I told myself I would not let it drop below ever again.

Seeing the number on the scale tho, uggh, at first I felt disappointment with myself. But now I feel disappointment + extremly strong urges to keep going lower or at least stay at this weight. I feel like I am going to throw up if I think about eating, I have zero interest in anything I could eat or even drink. just thinking about eating, chewing anything to do with it makes my skin crawl and I start gagging. So this isn't good. I forced myself to eat a small bun today and that's all I could manage. Physically, I don't feel very well, I know I am getting over being sick, but I feel faint and light, shallow breath.

What are some good suggestions for when you are feeling this indifferent to getting food in, or just the food itself. I can't handle the texture, taste or any of it. I know I have to get something in, I just don't know what I can manage. Bread seemed pretty bad, and hard to swallow.

I am pretty upset right now, I feel like a massive disappointment. My version of doing pretty good, isn't all that good, and its the best I've done in a really long time. I feel like I cannot escape this. Sorry this is so long.