{{{{{{{{{{{MJ}}}}}}}}}}}} I know how hard it is for you. I've had to put the dog I'd raised from an 8-week-old pup to sleep. She was old, but refused to ever grow up. She never believed she couldn't play with me just as she always had, even when it was clearly much harder for her. Pets are like our children. We care for and nurture them, and they do the same for us! I'm sorry for your loss. Post more and let us know how you are doing. Maybe we can chat if you are up to it. Feel better.