I agree with everyone else.....only you know what you are capable of handling, so if it is something you want, then I would keep applying for ER tech jobs. I dont know how it is where you live, but I know out here our fire departments offer First Responder training and EMT-B, which is how I got mine....didnt have time to go thru the college classes and sit there for 16 weeks....During the day I work with mostly live people (im a radiology technologist) and then I take call for the Coroner's office, so I get my trauma drama fix as well.....I also volunteer for a local search and rescue agency that has been around forever and I really love it....it only takes up as much time as I want to put into it, and I find it really rewarding to be able to be of service to the public, especially during stressful times. Hopefully I provided some insight for you, and feel free to PM me if you need anything!