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Originally Posted by Calista+12
She claims she's only kidding but if I go to her house to visit, it will take a while for her to notice me. "Oh it's Calista!" after I've been there a good 20minutes. Then she re tells the story of how she didn't believe she had a baby when I was born. That tells me she does not want to acknowledge my existence. The pain it causes is horrible and at times makes me very self destructive. There is a possibility that my mother is disociative; I guess that would explain a lot.
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Hi from Uthia,
My mom has disowned me for six years. This is due to a family Law case I was fighting and since won involving abuse of my daughter by her dad. Wierd thing is, she knows about all of it and reported abuse to the SS for two years that would may one get sick to their stomach. She go a security lock door but on her front door and got a restrainning order that was based on lies that my brother supported. I went to jail, after just sitting outside her home telling her in the name of Jesus I need you and your support.
I went to jail, was abandonded completely by her but kept going anyway in saving my daughter from abuse. I was abused by her. It does not make any sense to me now or then. she is now asking me to write to her but does not write anything back. She will not talk to me on the phone or let me come over to see her. I just want peace, to have her as my mom, her love. But she is so mentally ill I don't think I can change her even if I forgive and forget what she did to hurt me. That makes me sad and angry as she should be held accountable for the treatment she did to me. Anyhow, if she doesn't change her tone and attempt to communicate (also for my daughter's sake) I will have to let go, let God, period. I accept that. It is not healthy for me to subject myself or my daughter to her pathologies if they are inbedded in her psychi. Right? Right me back please.