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Originally Posted by Switch
So, I've been dx'd with Bipolar 2, and although I look back at my life and can see bouts of bipolar depression and mania, they're few and far between.... until after I took the pill.
When I took the pill I went seriously mental. I didn't make class because I would cry uncontrollably under the stairs for no reason, sometimes made worse because there was no reason. I ran away a few times, and punched a good friend in the face for trying to stop me. I eventually started seeing flashes of me killing all the little kids in the playground, and then killing myself. I almost jumped in the river in the winter so I would drowned. I yelled at teachers, and cried in class, and it was terrible.
But I was also still a lot of fun. I would flip to my "usually" self or into a slightly exaggerated (hypomanic) state, and I was fun to party with and still had a lot of friends, and a boyfriend, and a million guys (and girls) still liked me. There was a few issues at home, but mostly I was going crazy, but people still wanted me to have fun.
It was bad, and it was the first half of my grade 12 year.
Then I went off the pill and it went back to normal. I was normal, slightly hypomanic me, and it was all good.
A year later I start showing a lot of signs of bipolar. I fall into a depression, I rapid cycle, and it gets progressively worse until we land where I am now, 3rd year university drop out, unemployed, and doesn't leave the house, and dx'd with Bipolar and a few other things they're still trying to figure out.
(with an IUD in now for birth control)
Has anyone else had the pill do that to them? Is it possible that the pill was a catalyst to my BP? Did it cause it?! Would I be bipolar (or at least this bipolar) if I hadn't been on the pill?  |
I used to think meds (any meds) caused my problems but my doctor told me my being on the pill doesnt cause mental illness, it can if you already have a mental illness make it worse or better depending upon whether the estrogen / chemicals in the pill helps or hinders my existing levels of estrogen and bodily chemicals.
he used the example of my bipolar and seasonal depression I have it because my brain chemistry doesnt produce the right balance of chemicals (dopamine and others) between the neurons and receptors that the electrical thought impulses pass through the result is they pass through from neurons to receptors too fast. the chemicals in the pill doesnt change that brain process for me. to prove this to me my doctor had me go through an eeg (test that measures brain activities) while on and then while off the pill. for me it did not change anything either way so the pill was not my problem.
my suggestion if this is a worry for you maybe you can contact your treatment providers they will know whether the type of pill you were on caused your mental problems. and like me they can do some tests to varify whats going on for you.