Dear T,

We're back at my core issues again (sigh!) and this one is the BIG ONE I've been avoiding since I started seeing you six years ago. I'm back to needing you again (double sigh!!) and I don't like feeling needy. This process is really scaring me. I was doing so well - feeling confident and sure of myself. Now I feel ugly and small and scared, like I want to disappear.

I don't know if I have the courage to go through pain like this again. I feel like I'm standing at the edge of an abyss with one foot hanging over and the other one ready to go. I'm so frightened of this process. Please, please, please be there for me. I know you will - you always have been - but I'm just so frightened right now. I want to heal but it hurts so much.