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touchingsaturn · Apr 14, 2012, 07:54 PM

k, so i don't know how to do the multi quote thing.. so i put what you said in italics & my responses in bold

TouchingSaturn......thanks for the message....and for the well wishes for the weekend....my weekend is going ok....im working today and tomorrow, but being the glass half full girl that I am (sarcastic LOL) its only 10am-6pm both days so it could be worse. I took my little one to this awesome place last night called the City Musuem in St.Louis, MO. It is this huge warehouse filled with caves and holes in the floor and tunnels and crawlspaces that end up all over the building....they were open til midnight and of course we stayed and played til then......great time though and good to get out and actually enjoy my son without being too rushed or crabby or tired.....

i'm so glad you guys had some good one on one time ... sounds like a LOT of fun!!!! i'm glad you had energy to really enjoy being there in the moment with your son i know sometimes those times can be rare when you're struggling...

Its funny what you were saying about friends trying to understand Bi-Polar.....A few of mine understand it (I think to the point where they know you act like a psycho and needs pills to stop acting like a psycho) but I dont think they understand it fully.

to be fair, what we experience is hard for even us to understand at times... i am one to appreciate the effort that some choose to make to "get it" .. sadly, some people don't even try, of course some of them don't even realize that they don't get it, so... i've made peace with the fact that they never actually will.. not totally... and i've finally realized (as i've gotten older), that it's not their fault... and just count myself grateful for those who have stuck with me through the years & love me just as i am.. crazy and all

My signifigant other understands the emotional part of it, but he doesnt understand the sleep part of it at all....he laughs about how I can fall asleep standing up and Ive explained to him over and over that I cannot function on just 4-5 hours of sleep like some people can.....he thinks since he can, and hes so busy, that everyone can do it.....he doesnt understand the mental backlash of it though if I dont get enough sleep.....I think though, that I am requiring too much sleep and its getting on my damn nerves....lol

i know this might be a silly question, but has he ever been around you when you've been sleep deprived to witness how it affects you, your behavior, your mindset.. the next day?? there's hope that in time, he'll come to a better understanding.. and i'm right there with ya on the too much sleep thing... i hate that i have to sleep like 12-14 hours a night... i can get by on 10 on a really good night... expressed my frustration to my dr. that i was literally sleeping half my life away... he protested that to be truth... to which my response was to explain to him the math LOL there are some nights i soooooo don't want to have to go to sleep.. i want to stay up, and talk, and do!!!! but i know the price i'll pay if i f*** around with it... in the long run, i'd rather sleep a lot and be (for the most part) sane.. than not sleep, and be totally off my rocker & not get to really "thrive"...

Its amazing though how some people think you just take this pill or that one and everything is ok.....sigh....I wish it were that simple.....but usually for every pill, theres another pill in line you have to take with that one.....

oh how i echo that whole sentiment... i mean, like standing over the grand canyon and yelling it out loud... that big of an echo... as i'm sure most people on this board also do...

It is good to hear that you are at least feeling decent.....and focusing on the little things is always important...its hard to focus on those sometimes when you feel like crap, but it is those little things that make your heart lighter....

oh, thank you.. and i am better than decent.. i'm good.. i have issues, of course, but life.. life is good... sometimes i just need to smack myself and remind myself of that ... sometimes all of us need to do that... and yes, i take as much joy as possible in the smallest of things.. granted sometimes it takes real effort to carry that joy through the rest of the day.. and at times, i fail miserably.. but there's always time to get back up and go back to trying to focus more on the good than the bad.. i've found focusing on the bad doesn't make it go away... and focusing on the good tends to keep the bad at bay... bahhh i really didn't mean for that to rhyme LOL

I hope you are enjoying your weekend! Not sure where you live, but there are a bunch of storm warnings out all weekend here in the midwest where I am so be careful!.....makes me want to take a nap lol......Have a blessed day!!

i live in virginia... i hope that you and your loved ones stay safe through the storms... the weather has been so... extreme... and extremely weird... wondering if this state of affairs is the new normal.. *sigh*

if it rains & you can hear it.. take a moment to listen for me... i love the sound of falling rain and distant thunder... and it's been a while since i heard it & was actually able to enjoy it