Thanks for your replies.

dailyhealing: Yes, I'm currently seeing a therapist once a week. I've thought about meds, but I'm a bit skeptical towards them and my therapist never really mentioned/recommended medication.

I talk to my therapist about these issues, and she assures me that I'm a valuable person etc., but often it's just hard to believe.

As for dating websites, I've looked into that and even signed up for a few, also ones specifically targeted at gay people, but without much success. However, I've been e-mailing back and forth with a nice girl for a few weeks now who I also met online. It's just that we haven't met in "real life" so far, so I have no idea what will come of that... knowing my luck, probably nothing... but hey, never stop hoping, I suppose.

SSaysRelapse: I see what you mean, but right now this thought just makes me more hopeless. I find it so hard to work on myself and get through these struggles, and to think that I'd have to get all that out of the way before even considering a relationship, the one thing I yearn for so much... That thought just hurts. I always had this perfect vision that I'd find a girlfriend and everything that's wrong in my life would get better through that... but I suppose that's naive.