Thanks Jenn, that helps.

I have another question to throw out there, I guess it's just part of my process:

Is it possible for a person to change? My husband is begging me not to give up, to give him one more chance, but like I said earlier, he's not the man I thought I married. He says he would like to be that man. His childhood and events in his life have left him so twisted, I don't know if that's possible. He went from telling me I was his perfect woman when we met to lying, cheating and disrespecting me. This behaviour started to happen within our first year of marriage. He never really loved ME, just the idea of me. I've heard "I'll change" from my husband before, so I've told him that I can't be a part of his process, whatever that turns out to be. It hurts too much too get my hopes up and be let down.

Even if it is possible for him to change somewhere down the road, how do I forgive and forget what's happened? I think that if I ever do have a man in my life again, it would be better to start new with someone else. My whole life has been drama and instability, and at 35, I just want some peace in my life.

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