I started feeling depressed several days ago. I chalked it up to needing more sleep, my mother in law being extremely ill and in the ICU and money issues we're having. It's gotten significantly worst over the past day or two. At this point I just want to crawl into bed, cry and sleep. I have pretty much no appetite. The only bright spot in my day is my kids and husband. He knows I'm down but doesn't know how bad. I don't want to tell him because of stuff going on with his mom and work.

I absolutely cannot go into the hospital. We can't afford it and my husband absolutely does not need the stress. I was supposed to increase my Seroquel and I haven't because I haven't been able to risk being really groggy because of my husband never being here the past week. I'm going to start using a stationary bike to help strengthen my knee--I tore the carlidge in it last year and it's giving me a fit--and I'm hoping the exercise will help. I've started doing Atkins after reading articles on PubMed that indicate it has been proven to help bipolar. I'm hoping those things will resolve all of this but I keep wondering if I should call my psych and see if she wants to increase my Wellbutrin.

I'm scared and worried sick about what to do and how to handle this on my own. I guess I'm just asking for prayers and positive thoughts. I really, really, really need to get through this without going into the hospital or ending up pretty much paralyzed by depression.