I didn't dismiss anything, sorry if it came across that way. I was just trying to get a clearer view. I haven't had it easy either, won't get into it, but I know what it's like to suffer at the hands of loved ones. Even now, I'm still struggling with ALOT, and for a short while, I blamed God too. The difference is, there was no pay off for me, blaming God took away my power, cos that meant that I couldn't change any of it. So now I'm trying, trying to be more positive, and have a different outlook. Thing is, wether you're a believer or not, people think of God as all powerful. It pains me to think that you feel so trapped, and victimized, when you DON'T have to be ANYBODY'S victim. I was just trying to help, honest, but I can't make you see any differently, and maybe it's not even up to me. Sorry if my responses to you were unhelpful or offensive.